Ever felt forgotten by God? Felt like your prayers are reaching the ceiling? Maybe you feel like praying, but when you get to your prayer room – you feel helpless, you feel like what’s the point!
Maybe you have been praying for many years for change in your life, you see your peers advancing however you feel stuck, like you are still in the same position. Maybe you have tried everything you know how- you have prayed,fasted faithfully but you are still in this dry place whereby you feel like everyone else is prospering around you but you are left behind.
I can understand the anguish you feel because I was there. I know the overwhelming feeling of depression that envelopes you-that feeling of utter helplessness. You want to pray but only tears come, you try to sing but no words come out-only shouts of frustration. I know that feeling of bitterness that tries to creep in – the anger you start to feel towards the Lord.
To make matters worse, just when you feel like you have gotten yourself together, someone comes and exclaims how far they are in life and how they are surprised that you are still in the same place. I remember a time when someone I knew said to me after they graduated : ” you are STILL studying? Anyway, don’t worry- I will be ‘sponsoring’ your bus tickets from now on.” That sarcastic statement is still a wound to me because that was the first time in my life I felt a sense of despair, I felt numb because I was always wondering if I was going to finish my degree, it was tough and at times I was filled with self-doubt, always wondering if I was going to pass and then just when I had gathered myself together, someone comes and knocks that little bit of confidence down.
I want to tell you something- you will make it, you will succeed, you will move out of this wilderness. What you don’t understand about this season is the training that you are receiving. You are being trained to develop thick-skin, you are being trained to rely solely on God, you are being trained to trust God more! Your reality may scream that things are hopeless right now, your reality may tell you that you are useless, that you are nothing, that you are a failure BUT this is a test my dear friend to arm yourself.
Some of us don’t know that we are in a battle- a battle for our minds, joy and ultimately soul! Whether you like it or not-someone is fighting you- it’s time that you caught up with the times and started to fight! The thing though about this fight is that you don’t fight the way everyone does by throwing punches or hurling insults-no! You fight by wearing your spiritual armour (Ephesians 6). You fight by declaring the word over your situation, you fight by singing praises to God. You fight through prayer- if you can’t pray- ask someone to pray with you or for you. You fight by reading the word of God and seeing what he says about your situation.
Whenever you feel helpless and hopeless it means that your enemy has punched you to the point whereby you can’t get up, every time you try to get up you feel weaker than when you were down! The enemy doesn’t want you to get up, he will continuously punch you down until you tap out- tap out from God’s presence, tap out from his love, tap out from trusting him again, tap out from worshiping him.
Stop fighting the devil in your own strength, stop trying to rely on your yourself! You have a God who wants to help you, He wants to see you get out of this wilderness, He wants to walk with you, fight for you and continue showering his love on you! Trust in Him to do that, trust the Lord’s heart for your cause.
You are not a failure!
You are not forgotten
God has your name written on the palm of his hand (Isaiah 49:16)
Stay strong, your testimony is coming!