This week fear has been gripping my heart, I am making a major decision in my life and at times I get so scared, I literally feel like I am unanchored-at times I feel like I am about to sink. I have never done anything like this before but I remember the Word spoken over me-to trust the Lord in all things.
Friends, trusting God feels like walking on water every single time, it’s scary, there’s nothing that holds you in the flesh-you have to be completely and utterly surrendered to His will and purpose.
I am someone who needs a plan A right down to Z and currently my plan is God. Fear grips me because I don’t think I have ever depended on God in such a manner. For the first time I totally understand what Peter felt when he walked on water-I totally understand how he lost sight and nearly sunk-he must have kept thinking: I have never done anything like this before, is this really me walking on actual water?!
The thing is that God always prepares us for our Elisha moments, whereby we have to forsake all that we knew and follow him and trust in Him to take us to a safe and better place.
The journey has challenges, the journey has many trials and stumbling blocks-but the promise is that He is with me and he will never forsake me.
My spirit says : Fez, be still, have peace-walk in the joy set before you.
My flesh says: you will fail, surrender now whilst you have time, turn back, you are making a mistake.
How am I sane in all this warring in my mind you might ask
Jesus has never and will never let me down. That is literally all I pray: “Father, I need you! Father-you promised me you would answer when I call, Father-you remain faithful and you have the BEST plan for my life.”
Guys, I am a testimony, my life is a testimony , I am a living sacrifice forever at the altar of the Lord. I have been tested and tried and I know its supposed to be like that so that when Jesus returns I am as white as snow! This is part of my ministry and I am carrying good things-my future looks bright, though things seem a bit dusky right now-but my God will never put me to shame!
My God is faithful!
I carry God’s favour
I am Fezile, the beloved of the Lord God almighty!
Peace, all is well