Pressing on…

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I have had to reflect  a lot this year, I have had to ask myself some deep questions; one of those questions was why do I actually believe in God-why do I actually declare Jesus to those I meet?

Worldly pressures at times can throw you in a place whereby walking away from God seems like the better option- holding onto your own strength and might seems better than trusting in a God who says is with you but whom you have never seen! I mean-why am I enduring troubles-why am I being patient in the midst of persecution? Essentially-why do I endure all that I do hoping that tomorrow will be better-what I am hoping for actually?

Friend, have you been so challenged in your life that you feel like everything will shatter around you but for some odd reason-you still continue, you still press on, you don’t understand how you are still moving, but you are just putting one foot in front of the other?

There came a point in my life whereby I asked God how he allowed me to be in the career I am in when at times  it feels like I am being thrown in a cage full of lions-everyday, and he expects me to keep moving-regardless of the trials I face! Sometimes I want to run-but I cannot, sometimes I want to hide-but this force within me says:  you aren’t born to hide, sometimes I want to be complacent but a voice within me says:  do everything as if it is unto me! I have wrestled with God  , I have begged, I have stopped praying, I have fasted for God to take me out, but one thing remained-God said I will overcome!

There are scriptures I read when I was happy and let me tell you something, the word of God sinks even deeper when we are hard-pressed, there is something about pressure that causes our hearts to yield more to God’s word. One of those scriptures was in James where he says we must count it all joy when we face trials of many kinds-for our faith is being made strong ( James 1:2).

Man, if you read that scripture to me a couple of months ago-I would’ve decorated it and posted it on my Facebook page with smiley faces because it sounds really nice, fast track to now- it is as real to me as the air I breath, it is so real because I am realising that my joy truly is not tied to the things of this world-God is allowing me to face what I face so that I can actually disengage my soul from being tied to what my flesh is tied to. The Lord says don’t fear the one who can destroy the flesh-fear the one who can destroy both the soul and flesh( Matthew 10:28).

Essentially I believe in God because truly there are things I have tried to do in my own strength in which I have found myself fail. There are things I have tried to pursue in my own strength only to have those doors closed when I had been so sure that they were opened! God has humbled me in a way only I can understand. I declare his name to those who don’t know it because truly he has transformed my way of thinking. I go through hard times but I always know that I will make it because each and every word he has spoken in the Bible has come true in my life. I have tried and tested the word of God and let me tell you-it is always correct! God’s word can’t fail-it will never fail.

I can go through trials and be hard-pressed knowing deep down that the Lord is holding my hand-he promised to never forsake or leave me.

I may face the lions everyday but none is greater than the Lion of Judah-none has overcome him, I carry his name, I am covered by his blood and I am guided by his spirit! The darkness was overcome more than 2000 years ago-God knows that even if the darkness threatens to consume us-it can’t because it was defeated! He can allow us to face the darkness because he knows that his light is greater and it already consumed it.

I believe because I have seen the Light, I believe because I am a light-I believe because I belong to the Light!

Blessings

 

Growth

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I decided to read some of my blog posts and I even went searching for previous attempts that I had posted on other sites…I just smiled.

I smiled because I was taken aback at the growth. I cant begin to explain how good it feels to literally see my growth and to know that I’m still growing. I started blogging as a challenge really-I wanted to prove to myself if I would be faithful in writing. I needed an outlet and I started blogging more for myself than anything else-I even tried to hide away my posts because I just wanted to release that energy-so I always wrote from fear-fear that someone might discover me, fear that someone might see my writings; so I wasn’t really as free as I am now.

You might ask-why didn’t you just get a journal then Fez. Well, I did hahahaha, but I always knew that God gave me this gift so I thought-if someone discovers my writings atleast it will bring them closer to God.

I stopped blogging because I stopped believing in myself. I found myself comparing myself to people who were more experienced with blogging and I felt like I will never be as good and confident in how I write-so I stopped, sadly.

I was sad because writing offered me the space to really share my heart. I write letters to God sometimes when I struggle to articulate my prayers with speech. Writing affords me the opportunity to really process what I am going through-some of my posts were written when things were really tough in my life-whereby I didn’t see things changing. I wrote them because I had hope that things would change. I read them now and I am in awe in how God is ever faithful, that even when we don’t understand-He always has the best intentions.

Friend, I am in a great place in life right now-things aren’t perfect but I am growing closer and closer to the Lord, I know Him better than I did last year. he has caused me to grow up faster than I had anticipated. He urges me to reach out more to others more than I would like to sometimes-but I am glad he pushes me because everyone I met has a divine appointment and assignment in my life.

My roots are more secure now-the wind does try to beat me down BUT the difference is that I am never uprooted from God- I am never uprooted out of his love and grace.

I have this palpable love for the Lord-it overwhelms me sometimes. I think about him often, He consumes me daily. I have conversations with Him knowing that he is right there-I don’t convince myself anymore that he is listening, I now know that He is.

I don’t walk around wishing that people would affirm me-I walk around now knowing that I am important-not to the world but to my Father, I matter to him. I walk with certainty about the love that he has for me.

I could go on and on but all I know is that there is maturity now – what’s beautiful with God is that it’s never stagnant-growth is progressive.

My hope for you is that you would encounter the depth of God’s love-that the height and breadth of it would just overwhelm you. My hope is that you would be lost in the indescribable love that strips fear ,that tears doubt up, that shakes hopelessness and that destroys separation.

Friend-things will get better-they always do! The process may be painful, but it will end-it has to end. You are growing-pain is part of the process but the beauty is the fruit that’ll come out of that.

A seed has to break before a bud comes forth.

You are growing-prepare for your bud, prepare for your fruit-prepare for your harvest.

Prepare for your Savior – keeping in mind that was in in Heaven is PREPARED for you, it’s nothing compared to what you have ever imagined.

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When Disaster Strikes: Liz’s Story

Have you ever declared something to the Lord and were so convicted in your declaration, only for God to turn around and test the very words you spoke to him?

Monday evening was one of those moments for us. Our good friend Liz from Dubai came through to visit us and we had an awesome time with her- it was so awesome we sealed it with a soaking night. We soaked in the presence of the Lord, prayed, worshiped and declared his love for us; little did we know that God had an assignment for Liz-an assignment of faith! Friends, we felt the anointing move that night-at one point Liz was so convicted by the Holy Spirit that she declared that no rock will take her place in worshiping the Lord! She was so lost in God’s presence.

In that moment all we knew was that God loves us, all we knew was that we matter to God. All we knew was that we were shielded and protected by Jesus.

We all encouraged each other with scriptures and just gave thanks to the Lord for who he is in our lives, we proclaimed his protection over us and wished each other a good night, sounds uneventful right? Sounds pretty normal.

Then, disaster stuck…

We could hear Liz crying and Sipho-our friend, told us that there is a fire at that very moment that is consuming the building she resides in. in Dubai.

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We were confused- I mean, just a couple of minutes ago we prayed the right prayers, we sang praises to God- we did the right thing! We honestly didn’t understand how a disaster like this could happen-the anguish and helplessness we felt was overwhelming friends, we honestly didn’t have words to say to Liz – I mean what do you say when someone’s efforts,time and money have gone up in flames? What do you say when someone’s credentials and certificates are caught in a blazing inferno? How do you begin to bring comfort in such a heated situation when you have all your possessions and someone else is faced with having theirs in flames? We sat for what seemed like eternity,speechless.

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Let me tell you something-the situation was hopeless friends, the situation was honestly hopeless, to top it off we saw the article on GulfNews and watched the video of the chaos-I mean if there was ever a time to seal a fate it was that!

But God!

In that moment Wayne, Sipho and I just said: “No!” We refused to submit ourselves to that situation, we refused to entertain the reality before us and we just said NO! Friends, in that moment I honestly thought that Liz was about to resent us- I mean, the last thing anyone needs when going through something is for someone to say : “maybe ,just maybe your things are ok.” The last thing anyone needs in that situation is people who seemingly aren’t sympathetic towards your situation. We continued fighting for our beloved friend, we encouraged her to stand in faith with us-she was reluctant at first but let me tell you something about the peace of God-it transcends ALL understanding.

Friends-that building was on fire, we saw the flames engulf it, we heard the cries of desperation and hopelessness of the victims affected by this BUT we refused, deep down we refused to believe that. We prayed fervently, we declared the promises of God over that situation-we even spoke life into the testimony that she will have.

We trusted that in the same way that God protected the Israelites during the Passover since they had the blood of the lamb on their doors-we believed that God was able to do the same miracle by allowing that fire to consume everything else except Liz’s apartment! We believed with all out strength in this Almighty God that He is able to overcome an inferno. We believed that nothing will touch his anointed ones, that deathly situations will not come upon us, that we will be spared!

God was quiet.

Friends-in that bone-crunching moment, God was quiet! You know what, God is far beyond my comprehension to explain, all we had was peace. His grace was sufficient.

Liz finally arose and she said that God had asked her a couple of months ago if she would still praise Him if he took everything away from her-even in her saying that-we still believed that God would save her possessions.

The fire continued and we slept knowing-please look at that word-KNOWING that all is well.

We woke up the following day to a picture that her friend sent her showing her how her apartment block looked like-with the words, “Sorry friend.” Even with those images sent-we still refused, we still fought back and held onto who God is-we still refused to bow down to that situation.

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My faith has never failed me, it had nothing to do with proving anyone wrong-in that moment all we knew was that ALL things are possible with God, in that moment all we knew was that we have overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the words of our testimony-all we knew was that our faith has touched Jesus and he was working this situation for our good. We didn’t care about the images-we submitted ourselves to the image written in our spirit whom we know-Jesus.

What came later on that day was not just news, it was a testimony of the faithfulness of the God we serve. Liz’s agent told her that her apartment was not touched by the fire!

Please read this carefully-her apartment was not touched by the fire. The Lord God Almighty, the Lord strong in battle, the Lion of Judah, the Rock of Ages drew a line and her half of the building was not touched!

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Friends I need you to know something- Jesus is the only way, the only truth and the only life. The Lord is jealous over the ones he loves. Faith moves God.

Our faith moved God-like Peter we stepped out of our reality and stepped into our spiritual reality. We got out of the boat of desperation, the boat of hopelessness, the boat of despair and we walked on the possibility that lay before us-we focused our eyes on the reality we know-Jesus.

ALL things are possible for those who believe.

Your situation can change if only YOU believe.

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