Unreliable Friends

 

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Have you ever heard the statement : if you need anything, I am here-just call or sms I will be there for you?

I have.

I decided to use this affirmative statement ¬†to help me when I desperately needed a friend and guess what? That person wasn’t there. You may say-yeah but they were busy or they were held up with something. True-but what about if this is the constant wall you hit? You may say-well it’s time to cut your losses.

See, you have people in your life that you can’t just cut off-I hope you get what I mean-you want to cut them off but the love is just too deep. It’s not a toxic friendship because you aren’t broken that this person is just never there for you, it’s just disappointing because you give them the benefit of the doubt hoping that they will uphold their word.

I have come to realise that some people are too self-absorbed to truly care about anyone else. They are good people and well-meaning, but they just can’t be there for others. What hurts is that although they are great to be around-they are just unreliable.

Some signs that you have an unreliable friend:

  1. They always promise to be there for you and when you need them they just bail out on you.
  2. The conversation is about them-the minute it becomes about you, they switch off.
  3. They make lame excuses why they had to drop you suddenly.
  4. They don’t honour appointments
  5. They are self-absorbed-everything is always about how busy they are or how their life is just so hectic

This isn’t a comprehensive list-it’s just an indicator of some of their character traits.

It’s important to learn to guard your heart-as a person you just can’t keep exposing yourself to someone who doesn’t prioritise you. It creates feelings of self-doubt and anger. Give your friend the necessary space and resume your life but create sufficient boundaries to safe-guard your heart.

 

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Even when it hurts…I will praise you

I have so much on my heart, but I have been struggling to articulate it-I have been carrying all these things hoping that God would allow me to pen it down, hoping that I can express this myriad of emotions and experiences so that I can reflect on it and really take in what I am learning.

This year started off with it’s own set of challenges and man, bombshells got dropped on me-have you ever felt…lost? Like, God what is happening? I was so sure I was supposed to be here and now…this?! What is happening?

The frustrating thing with the Lord is that sometimes he just doesn’t answer when you need the answers at that moment, sometimes God will allow deep pain to come and he won’t even say ONE WORD! Does it mean he doesn’t care-no, but in those moments it feels like no one is there.

I am learning to accept that God is NOT predictable, I needed to learn that friends, that God is sovereign, he answers to no one-he doesn’t owe me explanations. It is hard to accept but necessary because even though he says I am his friend, but He is also my King.

I am struggling to pen the details, but here is an awesome song that sums up what I feel.

Be blessed, God is always FAITHFUL!

 

 

 

Happy Happy New Year

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To everyone who read the blog, stumbled over, subscribed and even supported by suggesting what I should probably write about next- a very big thank you!

I pray that God blesses the work of your hands, I pray that he would turn your pain into joy-mostly I pray that you would grow in wisdom of who He is.

God bless

Fez

Ps – Don’t be afraid to comment, I really enjoy knowing what is on your heart.

Fezile, the one whom God loves

 

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It’s Christmas day and I am behind a PC ūüôā

I couldn’t go to bed without writing this post-today I went to church and as I was sitting watching the speaker share the message I realised that God gave me life, God gave me time and God has given me love.

As I reflected on what my Saviour has done for me I was filled with tremendous joy. The word says we have every spiritual blessing (Ephesians) and today it hit me that everything the word says I have-I truly have.

As I reflect on my life, I realised that if I were to go to Heaven now-I would have peace, not only ¬†because I would be in my Saviour’s arms-but I would have peace that I used everything the Lord told me to use and I have done what the Lord has said I must do-there is nothing more beautiful than that-to be in the complete will of God.

I used to think that if I had more money or a better house or many cars I would be complete-but friends, Jesus completes me, Jesus is my answer to the world’s deepest pain-Jesus is my everything.

I thank God that when he died for me more than 2000 years ago-he saw Fezile before him and he said I love her so much that I am willing to lay my life down for her. Jesus saw my whole life before him, my mistakes, my failures, my flaws-but even in all that-he still chose to die for me!

I boast of God’s love because honestly that love is the only one that hasn’t demanded me to be anything else than what I am. I know God loves me, I know that I am precious to Him and I know that I matter to Him. I know that when I am sad he feels my pain because he loves me. There isn’t anyone in this world who can ever tell me otherwise concerning God’s heart for me-I can speak confidently of that love because I have a relationship with my Father, I tell him everything and I know he hears every single prayer and he makes every effort to bring comfort and hope my way-because of the love he has for me.

God’s love humbles me because I don’t deserve it BUT he gives it to me regardless.

As we celebrate Christmas-what are you grateful to God for? As you reflect on God’s love for you-how have you grown? How has God’s love changed your life?

Let me know in the comment box below.

Blessings

P.S – If you need prayers concerning anything, just type in “pray” and the minute I see your comment I will pray with you-because YOU matter to God!¬†

 

 

I DON’T LIKE YOU!

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I struggle to understand why we hurt ourselves so much by doing this-forcing people to like us.¬† I want you to take the time to think about someone you dislike, is there ANYTHING that person can do to make you like them? Chances are…nothing right? Then why bother trying to be liked by someone who dislikes you?

We spend energy, time, and sometimes money impressing people who really don’t get moved by our presence. Think about that, their lives don’t get moved by your presence-meaning they don’t even acknowledge your existence! They really don’t care about you-but there you are breaking your back forcing yourself to be liked when essentially-you aren’t!

Let me ask you again, why do you bother?

You bother because you want affirmation: you want to be acknowledged by them, they hold some power over your life and you want to feel accepted, loved and normal. Someone out there holds your value in their hands because you have given your value over to them.

¬†What if someone valued you so much that they weren’t moved by your mistakes or any flaws that form who you are?

Thing is beloved you already ARE loved, you already ARE accepted and most of all Jesus doesn’t even want anything in return. You are loved unconditionally, no river is too wide, ocean too deep, mountain too high to express the depth, height, and width that is found in God’s love.

If you are cheapening yourself by thinking that you can buy acceptance then you are living a lie. Emotions can’t be bought, they are felt.Love cannot be expressed only- it is experienced.

When people love you their actions will demonstrate what’s in their hearts.

STOP focusing on people who are blocking your progression, if someone doesn’t like you, please send them off with a a basket full of goodies for their journey, why be bitter when they are creating space for a truckload of blessings?

Get to a point in your life whereby people’s departure out of your life doesn’t cause you to have a breakdown.

Always assess, if you did all you could and were not at fault-PLEASE open the front door FOR THEM and wish them well.

Let go of what needs to go and embrace what is coming to bless you.

You are enough
You are loved
You are priceless, treat yourself as such

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He’s gone Fez

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He’s gone Fez

I heard the news that morning. I thought this must be a joke-how can someone who contributed in my life-someone who saw me grow up, someone who was tangibly there-be gone?

He’s gone Fez

I stared at my phone in disbelief, I was overwhelmed by shock and confusion – I didn’t understand what I had just heard- I wanted to scream : “it’s a lie, you are joking!”

He’s gone Fez

I remember thinking but I saw this person two weeks ago-he was walking, smiling, he waved goodbye as if we still have many more years to see each other again not realising that wave was the last goodbye.

He’s gone Fez

I felt like temporary insanity had just attacked me, as I gathered my clothes to leave- I wondered how he died, was he alone, what went through his mind-did he know death was near?

He’s gone Fez

The news was relayed to me-he died painfully but quickly, he died having done all he could to live.

As I stared at his coffin move past me, I felt the tears threaten to escape-they couldn’t flow down on my face-they refused to clothe my face with the pain written in my heart

As I saw the coffin put down into the grave I realised how futile life is-how small human beings are in the sight of God. It dawned on me that we place so much hope in material things, we place so much hope in things that pass away that we forget about the everlasting things.

As he was laid to rest I had compassion for him: I realised that even though he had brought so much hurt in my life-that he had said some brutal things to me,but he was there; he was there for my plays at school, he was there after school to pick me up- he was there for my birthdays, he was there during my awards at school. He was there to hear my stories about my day, he was there when I needed advice.

Though he didn’t know how to raise me, though he struggled to look past the biology that separated us, though we parted painfully,

He was present in my life

He’s gone Fez but never to be forgotten.

When we exclude God from our relationship

Image result for wrong relationshipI am meeting people who are in relationships that God did not send them to be in. I am meeting people who are miserable in their marriages-they had this idea that marriage was going to be a dream, effortless and instant.

Marriage with the right person is a dream, our problem is that we are becoming an impatient generation- we assess people by having our own check boxes that must be ticked off to fulfill our criteria , we claim to have consulted God but we find that the person we chose fulfills the whole checklist except being grounded in God. We are okay with dating and even marrying people who are not saved, we are okay with sidelining God in the dating process and wonder when the marriage doesn’t work out why God would lead us into that relationship.

The beautiful character of God is that he will never override your decision, we instead choose to be with people who are abusive, we choose to be with people who don’t fulfill their promises to us by allowing them to ¬†strip us of our dignity for a moment’s pleasure.

Marriage is becoming like a drive-through, people want their needs fulfilled at no consideration of the other person; when their needs aren’t fulfilled they go outside and find someone else to fulfill their needs and forget about their vows. Vows don’t mean anything anymore-being bound by your words has no standing anymore.

You might ask- “when did we become like this?”

We became like this the moment we chose to remove God from our decision-making, we became like this the moment we sidelined God in our lives; some of us box God in and expect him to work in every area of our lives except our relationship life-we purposefully exclude God and wonder why that area is failing.

The people who I have spoken to whose relationships didn’t work out say that they suspected that the people they were with were not authentic, most say they knew, but they hoped for change. ¬†I am seeing a pattern being formed-most people knew that the person they were with was not the real deal-so my question then is – why be with someone who God has warned you to stay away from? Why proceed into getting into a spiritual union knowing fully well that this person isn’t the one for you?

God has shown me that I too am not different from the people I am talking about in the above paragraph- I too chose to be with people who God had told me to stay away from and I too made mistakes by thinking that I could change the people I dated to become someone I wanted. God also showed me that the way I was so deceived I even thought that by dragging someone to the altar to receive the Lord Jesus into their lives would lead to all the tick boxes being fulfilled when in actual fact I hadn’t even discerned their heart (and mine) was not even centred on the Lord.

We choose people based on outwardly appearances- we go after the shine and not the heart, we go after the status and not the character, we go after the feelings and neglect the warning signs, we run after how great our Instagram and Facebook feed will look with them instead of chasing after the wisdom of God in discerning their motives. We trade our souls to become the envy of the world, we relentlessly pursue someone who beats us up-physically and emotionally because we believe that we are more valuable as people when we are with them-forgetting about the one true love that relentlessly pursues us even when we willfully walk away to pursue what breaks us.

Beloved, you don’t deserve heartache and abuse. You don’t deserve to be someone’s second-best when God has made you his first choice. My hope for you is to turn to God for help, run back into the arms of your first love-trust Him to lead and guide you again by submitting to his will. The things of God may appear to take time but his timing is purposeful, his timing is perfect.

Only God changes people, only God can tough people;s hearts to be completely transformed.

Hear the Lord’s voice today and make the necessary changes.

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