The same beginning but a new mindset

 

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As I write this I realise I haven’t blogged in quite a bit-needless to say, a lot has happened in my life, I feel like I have grown so much in my perspectives of life.

Last year was ROUGH, I  went through many painful transitions but God saw me through each and every one of them, I didn’t realise how broken I  was. I will elaborate at a later stage what I went through,for now I have accepted and I am at peace and for me that means so much right now.

I once watched this video that states that everyone is in their own time zone in life. Basically it’s similiar to saying one must run their own race. I didn’t really take it to heart then but this year I am able to appreciate that phrase so much more.

‘Our journey in life is different : we are not made to be identical, we aren’t made to look the same , get married at the same time; our uniqueness affords for us to reach certain milestones at different times of our lives.

Make peace with how your life looks currently, make peace with the stage you are in currently-will it change?

Yes, ofcourse! You aren’t 2 years anymore right? You grew up and started making up your own mind and forming your own views on things-life has progressed, so why do you feel like you haven’t progressed? The problem we all have is that we want to be better or further than someone who we think has it all together,that’s the issue we all have-competitiveness and feelings of inadequacy.

Accept the stage of your life you are in, it doesn’t mean that it won’t change, but accept that currently this is YOUR time zone,it’ll change as you transition to different phases of your life.

One way I have helped myself to accept my stage of my life is by really truly being in it: I limit the people who have access to my phase-I believe in rising silently. The people who are in my life currently are people God has allowed in and trust me they are helping me towards the next phase of my life.

The other way I help myself to accept the stage I am in is by limiting my exposure to people who are in time zones that I aspire to be in. I realised this created feelings of inadequacy and feelings of stagnancy which were all not true-I couldn’t appreciate my own growth because I was too focused on other people, I made those people my standard instead of focusing on the standard God has set for my life-Jesus!

The last way I have accepted my own time zone is by relishing in my achievements at that moment. I introspect on my victories and take all of them in. My husband always says when life throws a curveball-take out your trophies of life and see what God has pulled you from,derive joy and strength for the challenge from there.

Can I tell you something?

You have survived heavy ordeals, made mistakes but overcame; survived brokenness and shame, tripped and fell-sometimes you stayed in the muck, sometimes you joined others in their muck-but you got up, you picked yourself up with the little endurance left and kept on moving forward-you proved to yourself and to everyone else that the fight in you is still intact and you aren’t ready to quit!

You aren’t a quitter, grab your big girl or boy underwear and keep moving!

You are doing well!

You are making it!

Keep going!

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Happy Happy New Year

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To everyone who read the blog, stumbled over, subscribed and even supported by suggesting what I should probably write about next- a very big thank you!

I pray that God blesses the work of your hands, I pray that he would turn your pain into joy-mostly I pray that you would grow in wisdom of who He is.

God bless

Fez

Ps – Don’t be afraid to comment, I really enjoy knowing what is on your heart.

Fezile, the one whom God loves

 

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It’s Christmas day and I am behind a PC 🙂

I couldn’t go to bed without writing this post-today I went to church and as I was sitting watching the speaker share the message I realised that God gave me life, God gave me time and God has given me love.

As I reflected on what my Saviour has done for me I was filled with tremendous joy. The word says we have every spiritual blessing (Ephesians) and today it hit me that everything the word says I have-I truly have.

As I reflect on my life, I realised that if I were to go to Heaven now-I would have peace, not only  because I would be in my Saviour’s arms-but I would have peace that I used everything the Lord told me to use and I have done what the Lord has said I must do-there is nothing more beautiful than that-to be in the complete will of God.

I used to think that if I had more money or a better house or many cars I would be complete-but friends, Jesus completes me, Jesus is my answer to the world’s deepest pain-Jesus is my everything.

I thank God that when he died for me more than 2000 years ago-he saw Fezile before him and he said I love her so much that I am willing to lay my life down for her. Jesus saw my whole life before him, my mistakes, my failures, my flaws-but even in all that-he still chose to die for me!

I boast of God’s love because honestly that love is the only one that hasn’t demanded me to be anything else than what I am. I know God loves me, I know that I am precious to Him and I know that I matter to Him. I know that when I am sad he feels my pain because he loves me. There isn’t anyone in this world who can ever tell me otherwise concerning God’s heart for me-I can speak confidently of that love because I have a relationship with my Father, I tell him everything and I know he hears every single prayer and he makes every effort to bring comfort and hope my way-because of the love he has for me.

God’s love humbles me because I don’t deserve it BUT he gives it to me regardless.

As we celebrate Christmas-what are you grateful to God for? As you reflect on God’s love for you-how have you grown? How has God’s love changed your life?

Let me know in the comment box below.

Blessings

P.S – If you need prayers concerning anything, just type in “pray” and the minute I see your comment I will pray with you-because YOU matter to God! 

 

 

God has not forgotten YOU!

Ever felt forgotten by God? Felt like your prayers are reaching the ceiling? Maybe you feel like praying, but when you get to your prayer room – you feel helpless, you feel like what’s the point!

Maybe you have been praying for many years for change in your life, you see your peers advancing however you feel stuck, like you are still in the same position. Maybe you have tried everything you know how- you have prayed,fasted faithfully but you are still in this dry place whereby you feel like everyone else is prospering around you but you are left behind.

I can understand the anguish you feel because I was there. I know the overwhelming feeling of depression that envelopes you-that feeling of utter helplessness. You want to pray but only tears come, you try to sing but no words come out-only shouts of frustration. I know that feeling of bitterness that tries to creep in – the anger you start to feel towards the Lord.

To make matters worse, just when you feel like you have gotten yourself together, someone comes and exclaims how far they are in life and how they are surprised that  you are still in the same place. I remember a time when someone I knew said to me after they graduated : ” you are STILL studying? Anyway, don’t worry- I will be ‘sponsoring’ your bus tickets from now on.” That sarcastic statement is still a wound to me because that was the first time in my life I felt a sense of despair, I felt numb because I was always wondering if I was going to finish my degree, it was tough and at times I was filled with self-doubt, always wondering if I was going to pass and then just when I had gathered  myself together, someone comes and knocks that little bit of confidence down.

I want to tell you something- you will make it, you will succeed, you will move out of this wilderness. What you don’t understand about this season is the training that you are receiving. You are being trained to develop thick-skin, you are being trained to rely solely on God, you are being trained to trust God more! Your reality may scream that things are hopeless right now, your reality may tell you that you are useless, that you are nothing, that you are a failure BUT this is a test my dear friend to arm yourself.

Some of us don’t know that we are in a battle- a battle for our minds, joy and ultimately soul! Whether you like it or not-someone is fighting you- it’s time that you caught up with the times and started to fight! The thing though about this fight is that you don’t fight the way everyone does by throwing punches or hurling insults-no! You fight by wearing your spiritual armour (Ephesians 6). You fight by declaring the word over your situation, you fight by singing praises to God. You fight through prayer- if you can’t pray- ask someone to pray with you or for you. You fight by reading the word of God and seeing what he says about your situation.

Whenever you feel helpless and hopeless it means that your enemy has punched you to the point whereby you can’t get up, every time you try to get up you feel weaker than when you were down! The enemy doesn’t want you to get up, he will continuously punch you down until you tap out- tap out from God’s presence, tap out from his love, tap out from trusting him again, tap out from worshiping him.

Stop fighting the devil in your own strength, stop trying to rely on your yourself! You have a God who wants to help you, He wants to see you get out of this wilderness, He wants to walk with you, fight for you and continue showering his love on you! Trust in Him to do that, trust the Lord’s heart for your cause.

You are not a failure!

You are not forgotten

God has your name written on the palm of his hand (Isaiah 49:16)

Stay strong, your testimony is coming!

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